ode to kelly c

i know i should just WALK AWAY but I HATE MYSELF FOR LOSING YOU, and now you're GONE. BEHIND THESE HAZEL EYES i am ADDICTED to you, and what no one knows is that i am a BEAUTIFUL DISASTER, and it's all BECAUSE OF YOU. WHERE IS YOUR HEART, i wonder? why won't you HEAR ME? YOU FOUND ME, and then you left me.

listened to KC while running this morning. My treadmill buddy next to me (30something goateed man who is always next to me, we sort of set the pace for one another informally) tapped me on the shoulder and asked if I was okay. I didn't realize until then that I was CRYING. Therapeutic, yes. But a little crazy too.